- Monday - Unistarters in the morning, where we try to help the first years feel a bit more comfy and meet some Christians in their faculty. After that we made banana smoothies at Bob. But all day I felt pretty terrible inside. Felt like dying and all I could do was sleep. Left Planet Bob for a meeting at 7, which was productive but tiring, and returned to Bob after. Sally, Simon, Eltham, Chug & I ended up walking up the top part of Mt Keira, from the gates to the lookout. Before we decided to do that, I'd absolutely cracked. Felt horribly depressed - insanely painful. Talked to Sal a bit when we were all up there looking over the lights of the 'gong. Seems she's been here too & wants to drag me out. Dragging is necessary. Can't get out alone. It comes in phases. I'll feel like there is no purpose. All I'll want to do is nothing. All I'll be able to do is sleep. My muscles will start to ache. My head will hurt. My stomach won't keep food. And I'll wonder how I've ever, in the past, found reason, motivation or strength to do anything at all. A mystery.

- Tuesday - Spent the day alone except for Sal dropping in to see if I wanted to come for a swim. A day at home was needed. After dinner out with Mum & Dad, went to Bible study where we looked at John 10. It was a pretty awesome study. It was crazy noticing that Jesus is the Shepherd, and later the slain lamb. We thought it was cool how that sort of showed him being greater than us & watching over us, but also being one of us. The whole fully God, fully man thing.

- Today - Woke up with a swollen throat feeling. Pretty gross. Hopefully it'll go away. I've already paid my three bucks for unimovies :p

"I paid my money, and I'm gonna see *all* the movie!"

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Reading... The Great Divorce - C.S. Lewis

Listening to... Since I Left You - The Avalanches, Damnation - Opeth, Subject to Change - Vanessa Mae