My piano needs tuning.

A bit overwhelmed by the feeling of always having work I'm supposed to be doing. I grew very used to doing not too much at all in the break... Hopefully thesis won't take over my life, even though my supervisor made a call suggesting I should make the lab my 'home'. Eugh.

Bible study on Chillin' Tuesday has been awesome. Both super encouraging and ultra challenging. Yesterday we looked at Jesus making the call that he's the resurrection and the life. Cool. The promise of life cannot be topped.

This arvo when Sal finished work and I'd become bored with studying, we went via Bob (to get Simonious and Doug) and headed to K-Mart to pick up some schweet light sabers (minus the light). So awesome. A different colour for each kid. These are the way cool ones that retract all the way into the handle. Everyone wishes there were LEDs inside, or maybe a bulb. But they've manufactured them cheap & nasty - with glue & without screws - so dismantling comes with much fear of wrecking'm :(

UniMovies brought us The Incredibles!! 10 points to this movie. Recommended viewing. Wasn't up for a second movie so Saru and I left for ultra fun Making Our Laptops Talk To Each Other, Ordering ADSL And Modem For The J's (+G), Drinking Chai Tea With Too Much Sugar, and general nothingness.

Time to crash...

Disturbing Dreams

In the first one Sal and I were driving down a foresty mountain road. Maybe like Macquarie Pass or the top of Mt Keira Road. I was driving, and we were following one other car. It felt weird because I was watching both cars from above. An aerial view. I was driving way too fast, and was only just making the turns. Like in Daytona, except that I was scared. Then the car in front of us had an accident. We were standing around the girl who'd been driving. She was lying there dead. We couldn't do anything.

The other dream that I remember involved some kind of huge creature that was going through the town destroying everything, killing people and eating people. Everyone was fleeing, and a lot of people were finding places to hide. But this was really something that you couldn't hide from. I was with a group who just kept trying to get further away, in the hope that by the time the creature reached the place we were, it wouldn't have the strength to kill us. I had my red backpack with me, but I don't know what was in it. We came across some friends of ours who'd decided to hide in some kind of garage, but we convinced them they should keep going because that shelter wasn't strong enough to protect them. I found out that one of my friends from school had died (probably in one of the attacks, I guess) and I lost it. It felt disturbingly real. I was worried for all her friends and family, and felt terrible.

I was so exhausted when i woke up, and had to lie there recovering for a while.

Pwetty Patterns

I nuked my first CD today. I think it took just over a second - then BANG! Now it looks really cool. The disc had only one track on it, entitled "Chillin' Tuesday", also known as "Suze, Janet & Wen's second-greatest hit". WOOT!

One... Two... Three - *BURRRRP*

Well, Thursday night (Friday morning - whatever) and my throat, in the style of a true champion, has totally recovered. I also feel like I'm alive again, which is always nice. Junk like the last week or so makes feeling 'normal' feel awesome.

- UniMovies last night - Blade Trinity was somehow even better the second time. Probably had a lot to do with the UniMovies factor, and the bunch o' kids with, and Sal's stoopid comments throughout. I didn't know Kester was there until I heard his ultra loud and lone laugh at one point. Good work Kester :D

The Grudge, unfortunately, failed to get me into a detox-requiring state. (Unlike after The Ring at UniMovies... Kester to the Maccas drive-thru chick: "I've got a thing for cookie time" - followed by Mystery Science Theatre 3000 the movie!) Anyway, I'm not saying that The Grudge isn't potentially a scary movie. It's just that my frame of mind was already set. It was going to be a comedy. And when the G.I. Joe extendo burp factor made its first appearance, it was ALL OVER! As Sim would say - "Fowget abou' it!"

After the movie, Joe & Yymmee needed to be introduced to the world of overdubbed G.I. Joe safety message goodness. Everyone loves that stuff. It was weird and cool to see these lads who'd stealthed it down to the 'gong.

- Thursday - The pirate flag had its first Evil Faction adventure today! Slurpies at 7 Eleven. After sorting through a bunch of random clothes and junk from the cupboard at Bob, somehow we ended up at Woolies buying too much chicken, and flying the Evil Flag high all the while. Then Simon took over in the kitchen at my place while Sal and I did assistant-esque jobs (e.g. making nachos for cooking-time snacks). Eltham helped out in his own way by making plans for the next day's midday TV viewing. *Ahem*. Mum and Dad loved having dinner cooked for'm. Aaaawww.

Singing was fun tonight. We met up at the girls' place, which I realised doesn't have a name yet. (I only realised when I put their number in my phone. I had to call it "girls girls", which works as long as you say it with Strong Bad's voice.) We're gonna start learnin' some noo toons next week so that'll be fun.

Watched the last 10 minutes or so of Lost when I got home. So I didn't catch much of what was going on. But I've been told it's worth watching...

- Monday - Unistarters in the morning, where we try to help the first years feel a bit more comfy and meet some Christians in their faculty. After that we made banana smoothies at Bob. But all day I felt pretty terrible inside. Felt like dying and all I could do was sleep. Left Planet Bob for a meeting at 7, which was productive but tiring, and returned to Bob after. Sally, Simon, Eltham, Chug & I ended up walking up the top part of Mt Keira, from the gates to the lookout. Before we decided to do that, I'd absolutely cracked. Felt horribly depressed - insanely painful. Talked to Sal a bit when we were all up there looking over the lights of the 'gong. Seems she's been here too & wants to drag me out. Dragging is necessary. Can't get out alone. It comes in phases. I'll feel like there is no purpose. All I'll want to do is nothing. All I'll be able to do is sleep. My muscles will start to ache. My head will hurt. My stomach won't keep food. And I'll wonder how I've ever, in the past, found reason, motivation or strength to do anything at all. A mystery.

- Tuesday - Spent the day alone except for Sal dropping in to see if I wanted to come for a swim. A day at home was needed. After dinner out with Mum & Dad, went to Bible study where we looked at John 10. It was a pretty awesome study. It was crazy noticing that Jesus is the Shepherd, and later the slain lamb. We thought it was cool how that sort of showed him being greater than us & watching over us, but also being one of us. The whole fully God, fully man thing.

- Today - Woke up with a swollen throat feeling. Pretty gross. Hopefully it'll go away. I've already paid my three bucks for unimovies :p

"I paid my money, and I'm gonna see *all* the movie!"

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Reading... The Great Divorce - C.S. Lewis

Listening to... Since I Left You - The Avalanches, Damnation - Opeth, Subject to Change - Vanessa Mae

Cold Garlic Butter

Even the guy at the restaurant who brought the undercooked garlic bread to my side of the table is in on it - I taste cold garlic butter inside warm bread, and it's disgusting. If i was at home I would have spat it out. The girl on the other side of the room with the long dark hair, black headband, pink top and dainty mannerisms is so pretty I want to punch her. All discussion is useless, pointless, trivial babble. So I choose not to add to it. There is enough pollution already.

"Son, look at all the people in this restaurant -
What do you think they weigh?
And out the window to the parking lot -
At their SUV’s taking all of the space."